Going into the New Year I am ready for change. I have had turmoil in my life and so much bad luck. It seems I can’t shake off the seven year of superstition that has entered my life according to my horoscope. If only I can see the glass half full I think I would try to connect to change.
It’s been years since I have been able to connect to changing my life. Almost like reinventing yourself at every age. I have stumbled and tripped and can’t seem to get my head above water as the old folks say. Being from a small itty bitty town it’s hard to shake off that itty bitty grind that keeps on hitting the four walls of my mind. My mothers always said do your best and keep on trying but that’s still not good enough in society eyes. I say my mothers because as young child I was raised by my grandmother, aunties and of course my real mother when she had time for me. I would tell you who I am but that isn’t that important. But I will tell you I am stubborn, pessimistic, and stuck with the itty bitty grind.
Seeing my glass half full will take will power and connection of my heart and my brain. Only I can do that, not anyone else. The troubles that still plague me are troubles that seem to follow me where ever I go. It seems as if I haven’t leaned a God damn thing because my inventory needs cleaning and I don’t know where to start. Each and every time I look in the mirror I see the glass half empty instead of seeing it half full. I tell myself everyday to stop this shit and keep it moving. Hey who am I but an individual who is messed up with messed up problems that seem to grow inside of me like flesh eating bacteria.
After all, my stubborn ways and my messed up mentality, it’s time to see my glass half full. It’s hard but someone has to do it, and that someone is me. Me. I say me! It’s time for the change I know I can bring to myself. It’s needed and I must see it for what it truly is. When it’s all said and done, stigmas, bad habits, and hereditary glory means nothing. What really matters is how I see myself and seeing my own glass half full.
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